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Nicholasdohk1: long term relationship...
| Seeking: | Female Age 35 to 67 | | Status: | 55 Single Straight Male | | Location: | | | Interest In: | Long-Term Relationship | | Ethnicity: | Black/African descent | | Living: | Homeless | | Eye Catcher: | No Answer | | | Height: | 5'5 inches | | Body: | Average | | Hair/Eyes: | Black, Black | | Smoke: | No way | | Drink: | Never touch it | | Exercise | More than 4 times a week | | Politics: | None | | | Education: | Some High School | | Religion: | Christian | | Income: | Less than $15,000 | | Occupation: | Welding Fabrication | | Offspring: | 2 children | | Personality: | Funny | | Country: | Ghana | |
MY STORY
I spent the first 30 years of my life on a selfcentered ambition of more. I looked for meaning and purpose in women, drinking, partying, popularity, and extracurricular activities. I was always desperate for more.
More love. More attention. More happiness. More friends. More girlfriends. More achievements. More hobbies. More travel. More popularity. More beauty. More success. You get the point. I wanted more. The more I taught, the more I wanted. It was a trap. Nothing was ever enough for me.
As a freshfaced college I kept this search going. I hoped a new city, campus, friends, social group, or study would be the more I was looking for. Sadly, it wasnt. And I was tired of looking. So tired I became hopeless and depressed. I spent night after night crying in my dorm thinking, "God, there has to be more than this." This question absolutely haunted me.
I grew up with a view of God who was just sort of "There on Sundays". He wasnt personal. He couldnt have been. After all, if He was so good and so great like we sang about those times I went to Church as a child, why was my life full of pain? Why were my parents divorced? Why was I mistreated? Why did my life feel so empty? If He was so good and so great died on the cross for me… Why? Those phrases become meaningless to me. So meaningless, to avoid conversations about God in a Christian small town I actually identified as a Christian– even though I had NO idea who God really was or what I really believed.
So I started asking friends in dorms, classes, and parties, "Dont you think there has got to be something more in this life than this? Do you think its God?" Most everyone laughed it off, "What are you talking about? Whats got into you? Oh, youre just drunk!"
They kick you out of the dorms in Ghana for Christmas, otherwise I would have stayed. Home was a place I avoided for nearly my entire life for both the pain I encountered with my family and the mistakes I had made.
Ill never forget that Christmas morning.
I wasnt sure if God could hear me but I fell to my knees and prayed anyway, "God there has got to be something more to this life. If you are real, reveal yourself to me." It was the first sincere prayer of my life.
That same day, my grandparents pulled me aside asking if we could "talk". My meek and trembling grandma said, "Doh, your grandpa and I have been praying for you. This morning we think God said He wants to reveal Himself to you." In that moment, I was sure God was real.
They told me if I went back to my campus, I could go to a Christian organization called CCG to hear more about Jesus. Without hesitation, I went. I marched into a room full of the most beautiful people I had ever seen in my life. They were radiant and joyful and genuine. It totally freaked me out. They seemed to have everything I wanted. To my surprise, they did not reject me. They actually embraced me.
The next day I poured my heart out for 2 hours and confessed every sin I had ever committed not that she asked me to. My new friend listened and prayed for me. She was the first person in my life to do that. I asked if we could meet the next day or talk about God. It was in the Bernhard Center that I met the real Jesus for the first time. She explained to me, Jesus was the more I had been looking for. She elaborated
The reason is that the appetites of our hearts were made for God and they will not be satisfied until we feast on a relationship with God. Jesus said, "I am the bread of life; he who comes to me shall not hunger, and he who believes in me shall never thirst." Everybody is thirsty. Everybody is searching for a fountain of everlasting joy. When we find Jesus, the search is over.
He drew a diagram illustrating that while God loves us and created us, the problem is that we were sinful and had fallen short of the glory of God Romans 323 which separated us from God picture a giant gap between a mountain. Thats why Jesus died on the cross for us. Though he was rich, yet for our sake he became poor so that by his poverty we might become rich 2 Corinthians 89. He lived the perfect life, died the perfect death, and rose from the grave in victory for all our sin and death. Imagine a bridge between the gap of the mountain. If you put